Something Happened

I remember. Time fleeting. Running.

Is it escape. Freedom. Living away from darkness.

Shunning light. Disdaining frankness. Voices

Screaming. Crying. To die

Such a beautiful thing.

I remember.

Or maybe I want to forget all things

Maybe I need to resolve. Separate. Maybe

The evils within are ready to live.

I remember when the abyss was scary.

Nightmarish yearnings of things never spoken.

Just things whispered and hidden.

I remember.

Losing. Anything. Everything. Something

Missing. No rosy trail. Beacon welcoming me in.

I remember.

Dying.

But did I miss anything.

Love and Requiem

Love and Requiem 
I remember

Touching and kissing and longing

Reaching for stars 

Crafting a promise ring

I remember a touch

I remember how to feel

I remember

Mornings filed with sweat

Mornings when breakfast was so filling

Mornings when day

Made night a needed thing

When a text dispelled so many myths

And love could transcend human means

I remember feeling

I remember needing

Wanting so much 

Sleep becomes a nuisance of living

Silence a nagging itch

My own company no longer wanted

Only in your arms

Does my skin retain some feeling

I remember kisses

Wrestling in the throes of negligence

I remember life oh so fleeting

A carapace of the decaying mind

I remember a need

A lost of all feeling

Infused with the underlying of true sin

The deviation of dreaming

As reality becomes the faded thing

I remember

Lost in the moment

The moment is momentous

Every and all things

I remember voices brewing

Becoming truth while feelings

Just follow

Listening but not really heeding

I remember being lost

She was the drug

Addicted to all she gives 

waypoints

I tried to be a good manI really did, truly did, honestly 

I walked the path of faithfulness

Kisses to righteousness 

I even wept

But no answer received. Called gods name

I was shunned. Discarded

Just the singular thing

No love. No affection

A stair step. A mistake

This is the life I live. A moment

Of clarity and understanding of all things

The reason to not love

That’s the burden I carry within

The reason to linger. They stay single

Because of my being and dreams

Only a waystop of some adventurous fling

her

A beautiful thing
I love her. She is my thing
My dream. My heart.
She moves me like midnight sings
Like a soliloquy unrequited
Like a lost verse
In the poem of my dreams
A beautiful thing
I can’t touch her. I can’t feel
She is twin
One heart we share
Friends will ever live
Can’t aske for her hand
But I love her still. A memory
A dream … Memory
What can I do
A woman not mine
Never will be
But I love her still
So much. I love her still
Betrothed to another
Nothing real. Real nothing is
Pain is a border
Calling her name when sleep
Brings moments of happiness
But never real
I love her still
My twin
Completion of all things

Unrequited

Unrequited
Like sunshine. Spilling over the brim

Crystal glasses. Filtering stars. Sun

Cried tears of mercy, joy sings

Love of life, battling demons within

Crying whilst laughing. Singing. Voice hoarse

Tiny droplets of comfort. Taking in everything.

Every smile. Every grin. Every frown.

Chagrin. Losing. Winning. Everything

Is no longer a passé thing. Love of life. A

Turmulous ringing in the ear

Upsets the balance of true things. Screaming.

Akin to the music. Some say souls can sing

Of reaching of needeing. Better. Yes better

Things that harken the beacon that causes sin.

A heart beats. Carotoid breaks. Blood

Destined to be spilled. Pain understood.

This remembrance of better things. 

As clouds are no longer foggy. Words

No longer muddled. Actions understood

Fought but embraced. This thing is

Good. This becomes a good thing

And the sun rose in the morning. Dispelling

The nightmares we are forced to live.

the last night

Rope hangsShould I do it

Should I believe that

One quick motion 

Just a flick of a wrist

End all this and finishes this

Should I fall

Well listen to this

Nightmares they come, true dreams

Close my eyes, the imagine bliss

Lonely and hurting and crying

Stronger I am 

But I want to resist

Not wanting strength anymore 

Friends disappear 

And all I have is a listless dream

13 knots are so welcomed

To erase evening spoiled from within 

No body ever listens as tears try to sing

Everyone wants to hear the laughter 

Ignore the pain

Ignore the normalcy of being

The good man

My past runs up so quickly 

Some God punishes me still

Some devil welcomes me

He tells me

You keep what you kill

You receive what you hurt

You remember each and every I’ll

You grovel at the feet of wanton need

No God protects

Every emotion eats from deep within

Sorry emotion

Sorry the heart broken

Sorry the motions of love

Please let this pain end 

Hang me from the sun

Let me burn in my sins 

hurt

No answer

I love you

I need you

I want you

No answer

This is the question 

Where are you

But nothing from you 

You ignore 

Epiphany

Epiphany 
I’ve come to that point 

Fuck it … That’s the mantra

The way of things

If I’ve hurt you in the past

I’m so way past being sorry

It is. I don’t want love anymore 

Affection is a virus 

Yes she did that to me

I don’t hurt anymore 

I just walk

Fuck the rest 

Talking means nothing

Loving means little

Hearts are meant to be broken

And silence is the answer 

I forgot the question

Doesn’t really matter

Does it now
“This is Me …”

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No Filter

No Filter
This is me

No filter… No lie

Not even a whisper of compassion

I hate it all

I love too hard to remember

I trash relationships 

I hurt those who love me

Love those who hurt me

I bring pain into my being

Then cry when it hurts

I cry

Alligator tears because I feel nothing

I bring pain

That’s all I know

That’s all I am 

This is me
“This is Me …”

Copyright 2015. Omavi. All rights reserved.